I Shouldn't be this HAPPY

Via: Healthy Chicks

So I'm jumping for joy (figuratively of course jumping would kill my boobs at the moment!). Whilst the way of receiving the news was crappy (I miss real conversations not a quick SMS) the news itself was great.

I am finally going to be able to relax because my evil SiL is moving to Sydney YIPPEE!!! Of course the down side (and it is a massive one) is that I won't get to see my little niece and nephew grow up (not that we see them a lot now anyway!). But I just feel complete an utter relief. I imagine she'll still be the golden child etc... etc... but at least I won't physically have to deal with her and she's much easier to handle in smaller doses.

My Mum made the best point that now my MiL might actually realise that a 20min drive to our house is not very far after all with them living in Sydney!

So yes I am evil for being happy for the wrong reasons about their news but it is good for them too. She'll love it because she can live the life of a rich housewife and he loves the field of work he's in and this opportunity sounds amazing.

On another note, we broke the news on facebook yesterday and people actually believed our child would be called Pecan haha There were no negative reactions which is what really made me laugh!

Aunty x2

Well as of half an hour ago my SiL's c-section was scheduled and if all's going to plan I'm either an Aunty now or will be soon (I don't know how long the procedure takes). We're all so excited and are heading up to the in-laws later on to go in and do the big ooooh aaaah thing :) It's nice because this time the in-laws are here for the birth whereas last time they were off up North somewhere.

She was due on January 23rd so she's going to be just as tiny as her big brother was and no doubt just as adorable.

Will post photos as soon as I get them. I can't wait to find out what name they've picked. Such a perfect end to a perfect Christmas break.

Update: Claire Charlotte has arrived  (December 28th 2010 time: unknown) and apparently with a full head of red hair (but they aren't definite on the colour!). She was very small 2.475kg and is in the neo-natal unit but if all goes well she should be out and with her Mama by tomorrow. We got to peek at her through the window and she's absolutely adorable (but tiny).

Insane

I've always thought I might be a little bit crazy. I've always had jealousy issues (although never regarding the Hubby) and I always want to please everyone and make everyone like me.

One of my biggest pet peeves is selfish and or mean people and I have a few of those in my life at the moment. I will never understand how people can be that way yet still be adored by everyone. It's the current problem I've got with my sister-in-law and one that I've had with my little sister but she's actually growing up and getting better!

At the moment I feel like I'm at the bottom rung with the Hubby's family and it has nothing to do with anything I've done. Everyone just seems to treat the sister-in-law like the sunshines out of you know where! There's been numerous occasions where she's been rude to me and one big one where she was a complete bitch. Everyone always comes to her defence (except Hubby) and it drives me insane that they all like her more than me. It also doesn't help that she's the one providing all the grandchildren at the moment which immediately makes her number one in my MiL's eyes. I know I just have to get over it but it's difficult because I've been on the scene longer than she has so it's a relativly new feeling.

Writing this I realise I sound like one of the older siblings who gets pushed to the side by the younger one haha. So, I do have a brain that can be rational but, no matter what I tell myself, I can't help having these feelings and it SUCKS!

I try not to discuss it with Hubby because afterall it is his family. But he's really good with me about it and sometimes he'll agree and say yes you're right to feel that way and other times he gets concerned that I'm so focused about it. Literally I feel like I'm always trying to one-up her which is silly and there's no reason for me to be jealous of her life at all!

Plus I realise how much I'm wasting these awesome years by being jealous of someone that really shouldn't matter to me at all. It's like that old saying goes, you can't pick your family. I'm trying at the moment to just ignore/avoid and hope that I can train myself back to sanity but who knows! I just want to be happy and focused on myself and my brand new marriage.

I guess all of this sprouted from watching the first couple of episodes of Mad Men where January Jones' character goes to a shrink. I'm a bit slow on the uptake but I love that show!