Day 1: 30 Days of Truth

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.

JEALOUSY/BEING INSECURE. Without a doubt this is the easiest thing for me to single out. I'm sure a lot of people would focus on physical flaws but I'm pretty ok with my imperfect body, it's my mind that I occasionally want to whack with a croquet mallet!

I wish I wasn't so jealous when I get excluding from things to do with my evil step sisters-in-law and that I was a strong enough person just to let it all wash over me. Unfortunately I let everything, even the little pointless things, get to me and it's a horrible way to live. I shouldn't be living my life compared to other people's or going out of my way to do things for people who don't care either way in an attempt to get them to like me. Just because I married my AMAZING husband doesn't mean I should let his family get under my skin as much as they do.

And with the jealousy I need to get over the fact that the evil SiL has a kid and another one on the way and an awesome house. They're at a different stage in life than I am and my logical brain tells me that I'd much rather be where I am having gone travelling and being able to do whatever I want on the spur of the moment. Hopefully next year will be my baby year and it will definitely be bringing a more awesome place to live if things go the way they are going now.

I just wish I didn't compare myself or want to me part of their little 'clique'...it's like highschool all over again and it's just so pointless. Which is why that's something I hate about myself, I can see it's stupid but I just can't stop feeling it/letting it affect me.

Below is a list of what is involved each day of this challenge (I haven't scanned through them all but I figure it'll be interesting discovering them as I go along).

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.

Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.