First Scare

I shouldn't say first it implies there will be more but I'm assuming pregnancy and motherhood will bring lots more scares even if they are completely normal.

I never knew what this blog would be, I knew it would be what life would bring after being married and it certainly has been that! I looked at all of Mum's photos over the past year and we have done so much, created so many memories and I can't wait for what the future holds.

So back to the scare (apologies for the TMI) there was a little bit of blood this morning...nothing too scary but anything like that is enough to get you very emotional! Tomorrow I'm off to the doctor so I'll talk about it then but I just can't believe how matter of fact I am. I went over to Mum's for a bit of TLC and she said we could call etc... but I said there's been nothing since, no cramping or any other bad symptoms and it will either be everything is fine or the horrible alternative. So far everything feels good (I just wish that I could feel Pecan but that's a few weeks away) and I'll get completely checked out tomorrow. I think it was good for me to just have the day off to rest (my poor Boss I bawled my eyes out on the phone when I called in sick!).

But oh how it makes me want November to come now just so all the scary stuff is gone and I've got my little baby in my arms. But at the same time I don't want to wish away this time when it is just the two of us and I can't wish away the BabyMoon that we're both looking forward to.

Now all I need is a big thing of chocolate to gobble up, I've already got my tv shows and it's that perfect 'feel sorry for yourself' weather outside.

Bonding with Bubs - Week 15

Size: 11cm

What's Pecan Up To: hiccuping (I can't wait to feel that)

Symptoms: 2 dizzy/almost fainting spells (not fun)! Still a bit tired but not too bad. I can't cook as well which sucks makes me feel out of breath and gross.

Cravings: V8 Veggie Juice, citrus fruits, prawns

Keep that away from me: Chicken, anything that anyone suggests to me.

Weight: Still sitting at 75kg. Finally getting a bit of a bump YAY! Half of it is still my normal tubby belly but the rest is all bun in the oven!

 

Feelings: Slightly overwhelmed thanks to the pile of baby magazines my little sister got for me. Desperate for a hair cut! Wondering what our little bub will be and really itching to find out but I MUST wait.

Random: Searching away for the perfect baby names, slowly building up the boy list the girls is taking a bit more work. I keep second guessing gas feelings now haha and wondering if it's the baby. My MiL insists that's not possible until at least week 18 but more like week 20 - we shall see!

Happy Dance!

This is me although I think the 'Happy Dance, Happy Dance, I love to do the Happy Dance' actually comes from Dewey off Malcolm in the Middle. I remember in highschool myself and one of my girlfriends would constantly do it at lunch time. We were complete idiots back then and the misfit group, we'd take in anyone who didn't fit in/was rejected from their original group. It was awesome, sure there was teasing from doofus boys but ultimately it was loads of fun being in a group that wasn't afraid to be goofy!

But getting back to the original topic...or moving on to the topic depending on how you look at it! Hubby has been offered a casual job in engineering. It's fantastic news and he's hopefully going to an assessment centre for a graduate program next week. Very very exciting and such a turn around from my last post. So things are looking up for our little family. I didn't 'know' it would happen but I hoped it would, I should've remembered that this happened for me when I was doing my graduate program applications. It's been an amazing end to the week and I just feel really really lucky. I love that the universe throws good things at you when you least expect it (but really need it!).

I Shouldn't be this HAPPY

Via: Healthy Chicks

So I'm jumping for joy (figuratively of course jumping would kill my boobs at the moment!). Whilst the way of receiving the news was crappy (I miss real conversations not a quick SMS) the news itself was great.

I am finally going to be able to relax because my evil SiL is moving to Sydney YIPPEE!!! Of course the down side (and it is a massive one) is that I won't get to see my little niece and nephew grow up (not that we see them a lot now anyway!). But I just feel complete an utter relief. I imagine she'll still be the golden child etc... etc... but at least I won't physically have to deal with her and she's much easier to handle in smaller doses.

My Mum made the best point that now my MiL might actually realise that a 20min drive to our house is not very far after all with them living in Sydney!

So yes I am evil for being happy for the wrong reasons about their news but it is good for them too. She'll love it because she can live the life of a rich housewife and he loves the field of work he's in and this opportunity sounds amazing.

On another note, we broke the news on facebook yesterday and people actually believed our child would be called Pecan haha There were no negative reactions which is what really made me laugh!

Bonding with Bubs - Week 14

Size: 9cm...how did that happen?!

What's Pecan Up To: peeing, but thankfully cute stuff too like squinting and frowning and maybe even sucking his (or her) thumb.

Symptoms: Bit dizzy and out of breathe (apparently that's because of the increase in blood volume).

Cravings: Sour and savoury. I love love love my V8 veggie juice. Soup

Keep that away from me: Still certain meats and definitely still not a fan of chicken.

Weight: Still around 75kg which I'm happy with. I'm not ODing on the bad foods or snacks and making sure I get in my 30mins of dog walking every day.

 

Feelings: Getting less tired (yay!!!). Happy that I'm in 2nd trimester. Sad because I couldn't get the gorgeous pair of lace up ankle boots I wanted because they were a little too tight and Mum said my feet would probably swell BOO! Oh and I really really really feel like I'm having a boy. My SiL's boyfriend joked that I could 'feel it in my waters' and I just said I will feel so bad for this baby if it is a girl!

Random: I am actively stopping myself buying baby stuff. I keep reminding myself I can after our (& during!) trip over East. But window shopping is still fun and I plan on buying some material and yarn tomorrow to cross off 2 craft projects from my 25 4 25 list!

Cosy Up

Brr it is freezing but stepping into the sun when it's so cold is one of my favourite things. Bright sun, no rain, thick stockings (or tights!), jackets, cute sunglasses...what a perfect Saturday.

Today I had breakfast with my all-time favourite girlfriends. My little bump was squealed over, coffees were drunk, hotcakes consumed, poached eggs stared at longingly (my gorgeous GF even asked if it was ok if she ate it when she knows I can't, this is the same girl who said she thought of me when making chocolate mousse and felt bad!). These girls always lift up my spirits and we're all so similar. In fact the 3 of us with partners joked to the other one that there was no way she could date a rugged manly man when our partners where the complete opposite! They even let me bitch about my SiL being so C-section is the only way to go I would NEVER have a natural birth...GRRR

After that I went shopping with my Mum. We think we've found the pram/stroller (whatever you call it!) the Baby Jogger City Mini. Wham bam thank you mam re folding it up and it will fit in the back of our tiny car. But have to get Hubby to test drive it. We've already bought a baby seat because it was massively on sale ($159 - gift from Mum) and I really have to stop myself buying anything else! I don't even look pregnant yet (unless you know and I'm wearing something tight) going into those shops with all the giant bumps gives me the impression I should just WAIT. Pity my personality has never been a patient one ha-ha.

via bananababy.com.au

Now after a yummy risotto dinner cooked with me sitting on a cushion on a chair in our kitchen - stirring, stirring, stirring away! I'm snuggled up next to our wonderful fire and watching all my taped tv shows. Perfect ending to a perfect day.

Scared

I'm pregnant, the sole breadwinner and so far Hubby isn't getting good responses from his grad program applications.

ARGH! I keep trying to remind myself there is still ages until he needs a job but because grad offers are being made now and he's not getting anything it's hard to put it in perspective. Plus being in recruitment makes me that much more aware of everything and it sucks!

I'm positive he will find something it's just the waiting and I know it's hard on him and he doesn't say anything about it where as I am prone to voice my concerns which doesn't help him. But unfortunately Hubby needs to be pushed or nothing gets done and this is one thing were he can't sit back and watch the race he needs to jump in and act now.

I keep trying to remind myself of when I was applying to graduate programs. I got rejected so many times but still I was successful in getting a job only to quit it after a week. So I'm holding onto the hope that somewhere out there is his perfect job and he will be lucky to stumble upon it and we can not live off 2 minute noodles after the baby is born!

But we'll survive somehow, even if it means me returning to work (YUCK!) because, we decided to have a baby knowing full well this was a possibility. Still, I'm crossing my fingers and toes something amazing comes his way because he deserves it.