First Scare

I shouldn't say first it implies there will be more but I'm assuming pregnancy and motherhood will bring lots more scares even if they are completely normal.

I never knew what this blog would be, I knew it would be what life would bring after being married and it certainly has been that! I looked at all of Mum's photos over the past year and we have done so much, created so many memories and I can't wait for what the future holds.

So back to the scare (apologies for the TMI) there was a little bit of blood this morning...nothing too scary but anything like that is enough to get you very emotional! Tomorrow I'm off to the doctor so I'll talk about it then but I just can't believe how matter of fact I am. I went over to Mum's for a bit of TLC and she said we could call etc... but I said there's been nothing since, no cramping or any other bad symptoms and it will either be everything is fine or the horrible alternative. So far everything feels good (I just wish that I could feel Pecan but that's a few weeks away) and I'll get completely checked out tomorrow. I think it was good for me to just have the day off to rest (my poor Boss I bawled my eyes out on the phone when I called in sick!).

But oh how it makes me want November to come now just so all the scary stuff is gone and I've got my little baby in my arms. But at the same time I don't want to wish away this time when it is just the two of us and I can't wish away the BabyMoon that we're both looking forward to.

Now all I need is a big thing of chocolate to gobble up, I've already got my tv shows and it's that perfect 'feel sorry for yourself' weather outside.