Scared

I'm pregnant, the sole breadwinner and so far Hubby isn't getting good responses from his grad program applications.

ARGH! I keep trying to remind myself there is still ages until he needs a job but because grad offers are being made now and he's not getting anything it's hard to put it in perspective. Plus being in recruitment makes me that much more aware of everything and it sucks!

I'm positive he will find something it's just the waiting and I know it's hard on him and he doesn't say anything about it where as I am prone to voice my concerns which doesn't help him. But unfortunately Hubby needs to be pushed or nothing gets done and this is one thing were he can't sit back and watch the race he needs to jump in and act now.

I keep trying to remind myself of when I was applying to graduate programs. I got rejected so many times but still I was successful in getting a job only to quit it after a week. So I'm holding onto the hope that somewhere out there is his perfect job and he will be lucky to stumble upon it and we can not live off 2 minute noodles after the baby is born!

But we'll survive somehow, even if it means me returning to work (YUCK!) because, we decided to have a baby knowing full well this was a possibility. Still, I'm crossing my fingers and toes something amazing comes his way because he deserves it.